STILLETOS

Stilettos oh dear stilletos,

You gave me so much confidence, glamour and self esteem. 

Your flawless appearance is so captivating, you look pretty.

I had so much fun being with you, dancing around fooling around.

You accompany me throughout high end parties, made me successful with a little touch of your sensuality.

You changed the way I walked, the way I talk, the way I smile, and sometimes the way I think too. 

You are different than any other shoe. 

Sometimes I feel those feelings are just enough to make me fall in love with you. 

Stilletos oh dear stilletos, 

An hour or two would be fine, but I guess I will kill myself if I had to stay for a day with you. 

You hurt me often, you make me feel in blue whenever I get blisters because of you. 

Or whenever I think that you feel more comfortable inside your box.
Sometimes you make me feel for not being myself. 

You made me a different person whenever I wear you. 

Dear stilletos, you got those heels, those will be enough to kill me.

But I dont now why I stood up for you, you are just too good to be true.

dear stilletos, what if you got rid of your heels? would you still be nice to me? 

Now I have to decide to keep you, or to let you go.

   

UNDERWORLD

Journey heading to the underworld. I sat on the third row of a dozen on the black Pegasus carriage just in front of him. I remember very well that hooded bassaris leather robe which reflects his warmth showing as if he came from some place beyond the borders of the known and civilized. He looked very charming from the distance, but I never had noticed it until one day he was gone forever. 

DISSAPOINTMENT

lesson learned today:
Disappointment does not come from others but it comes from yourself. Disappointment appear when we expect the highest from another (especially that another is a person whom we trust). So don't expect too high on someone, but make sure we always try to respect other peoples feelings and effort and try not to do things for granted.

M I S S - T A K E N

I give you my heart
Hold on, let me sign it
Your senorita a.k.a. your best friend
Hereby, let it be known
Love like never before
I'm always at your service
You just have to holla at me

FYI - Utada Hikaru

F I G H T

Its been 11 months so far, time flies before you know it, but then again strolling some times in my blog made me realize that lots of things had happened until now and I could still recall the burden of winter. I had a dream to return back homeland this July but then things turned out differently, I believe the all Mighty has another greater plan, things are getting boring for me, my time is running short, but i still have another two month to settle in this cold country before I feel the eternal summer heat of my hometown.

I have been undergoing my Final year of college for about 11 months in the Netherlands until now and i just need 2 more months to survive before everything is over.  I believe i did not fail, and i wont.. I am just a bit delayed for reaching the finish line. Things were never easy from the start. I managed to survive this far, and I am proud of myself. Urban Design is something that is new for me I used to study Architecture and it had a slightly different approach. The whole learning process was a totally different experience than what i have previously experienced during the past 1 year I realized that I was fragile and introvert, unfocused an d a bit lost because of the circumstance,but now I am about to emerge.

P R A Y E R

Dear Allah, the only thing I would give for my mothers birthday present is an "Ing" diploma certificate and my presence home this July, I hope it will come true, i promise to fulfill my vow that i intend to make upon and i promise i will not quit to strive to build my dream. Amin..

Mind Control

TRYING TO CONVERT ANGER INTO A POSITIVE ENERGY.

Caught in the middle

Stuck

Should I choose to play with the fierce Tiger or the ferocious Lion or just stay with the fearless leopard?? 

Perfectly crazy morning..

Hey skinny white boy!

Its o.k, if you ask me to stay & I don't care 

A Sad Story

A person might come and go, but friends stay forever..

Friendship

title:  my best friend silhouette

done in rhino

There are many ways to express friendship, and i consider this as one, thank you to my best friend i really appreciate the effort of sparring a while to create such masterpiece. I hope we'll reunite soon!

This reminds me of my childhood memories.....

tell me..., what do you see?

"The ooo Old Days"

I'ts been a while since Ive been writing,  actually I dont want this blog to be such a trash but i guess I could probably read this again and have a great laugh after.. hmmm

Just as an intermezzo, Im done with my project for the current semester, but I'd love not to talk about it, I wanna relax a bit and just enjoy this free time while I can. wink..;p

Just now I'm watching a really old movie about highscool lovelife and all that, it really reminds me of my past life where I preferably call myself as an "observer" rather than the victim (hhaha, I know you'd probably be wondering, but I consider myself as an underdog, the man behind the screen (sorry to borrow this phrase from ya PM!) trust me, I was'nt the hot ass blondie, neither the "gotta be the first" kinda girl, life seems too boring for me then I guess, or call it something like that hhaha) but yeaaa... those old times.. kept in my unconscious memory sigh*..

Based on the movie that I'm currently watching right now AADC or as translated as (whats wrong with love=cinta? sounds pathetic huh? but believe me, I still look back at those old time (sometimes) wishing I could go to the past-I dont know why, hahaha). But seriously i think its really inspiring (or I rather call it "influencing") movie for most junior highschool peeps at that time, I could recall suddenly all after the lauch of this movie most of my friends suddenly had a dream of taking psychology as a major after graduating highschool (I forgot the reason but if im not mistaken since the main actress was really interested in psychology or something) but hey I kinda miss something!!, should'nt the demand would be an interest towards literature studies?? anyways.. lets just skip this inner dialog thinggy..

Nicholas Saputra a.k.a Rangga in the film Ada Apa dengan Cinta, (by the way!. I just realised that we are under the same junior highschool almamater (♥,♥) haha)

Hmmm... let me see what I've got..Juniorhigh.. juniorhigh. juniorhigh..
1. The kings and the rabble
2. The plastic gang and mean girls
3. Juniors and seniors

4. Short skirts and blondies

5. Secret Admirer and monkey crush (lol)

6. Teachers and nickname

7. Cheerleaders and math geek
8. Short skirts and high socks
9. Concerts and gigs
10. . .... lets just brain storm as we go shall we..

If you know what I mean... There are just a bunch of stuff I could whine about when you think of the old days, things then are just illogical when you think of it right now (well at least for me, hehe)

By the way, Id love to do a review on the film, theres just too many things I'd like to contradict to, but I'll leave that for later.. ;) 

Heres a picture I took this afternoon while having a little walk in old Centrum and the Ijssel river with a couple of friends of mine to freshen up this page ;p, enjoy!!

These are just some of the pics and scenery youll find about the old city of Deventer.
Cheers!! ;)) 

Happy winter to spring!

Lots of ♥ from the Netherlands

"I'M IN LOVE"

Finally, I'm in the end of my project design process, These last few days went pretty well ,I survived the last feedback (T____________T)".. And OH-I-SO-NEED-A-DAY-OUT!!

During my hectic week of project deadline I managed to keep in touch with my Bee in South Korea, he Introduced me to Eliza Doolittle's song "Skinny Genes". By the way, for those of you who are not quiet familiar, Eliza is a rising song writer and singer from UK. Her song actually had come across me a couple of times but I just couldn’t be bothered looking up for it since I was "so busy with my Brennero". I was really out of Inspiration and lack of motivation at that time, Bee knew that I was kinda stressed so during our talk over the net he sent me the link of a song and it's somehow cheerful and colorful, which I need veeerry much coz I've been gloomy for the last few days.

I came across her songs and stumbled upon her other songs which I consider catchy and just sincere, I love the tune and the lyric so much that I downloaded some to my curve (which seriously I don’t do often). Any of you reading this post I suggest you to check out "Moneybox", it somehow got stuck in my head, its just so original I guess, I luuurve it!!

And yeaa.. Apart from her songs, which had made me survived through my final feedback *CREDITS TO BEE!! ♥J*, I was inspired by her looks, her trademark were high waist mini shorts and skirts (mostly shorts) and a pair of Nike Air Royalty Macaroon (IHEARTTHEMSOMUCH)(♥_♥)wantthemredwantthemredwantthemred!!.

Happy winter to spring!

Lots of ♥ from the Netherlands

"Multitasking"

I suddenly wish..


I wish I had 6 pair of arms. I wish I could borrow Kevin Lynch's brain and his pair of hands. I wish I had 72 hours a day. I wish I can multitask my brain. I wish I could dream about my BF.I wish I could even dream and have a decent sleep!! I wish this will soon be over.I wish I didnt have to time myself to write this. I just wish..


Nadya Victoryka

" LADY GAGA" in Deventer

I need some new stilettos

Can't walk down the street in those

You are who you wear it's true

A girl's just as hot as the shoes she choose

Fashion put it all on me

Don't you want to see these clothes on me?

Fashion put it all on me

I am anyone you want me to be

(Lady Gaga - Fashion)

Over 300.000.000 viewers on YouTube Lady Gaga has become a trend in the music industry around the world. This Super pop star had always tried to show all her best to please her little monsters. Nowadays it seems like the weirder you get the better you achieve. Well maybe it implies on the old saying by Meredith West 

“If you want to stand out, don't be different; be outstanding.” 

And I do reckon that Lady Gaga, not just different, she also has the quality of being outstanding (well a part from the illuminati thing going on) but let’s just skip that part and just stick to her achievements. 

http://aestheticsofjoy.com/category/joyful-fashion/

Apart from her music, what I found interesting about this Lady is her sense of fashion. Well, I think it’s more than just fashion; I call some of the costumes she wears as “pieces of art”. She really wants to show her character by her physical appearance, how she interprets herself by the art fashion that she promotes. It’s also one of the thing that keeps her interesting, people will always be curious of what she’ll wear on her next video clip or performances.

Today’s writing I’m going to tell a little story during my Christmas Eve celebration. This year’s Christmas I was invited by Paul’s (A really nice friend of mine) Host family Leslie and Hinke Luiten, to join them on a Dutch Christmas celebration. Hinke Luiten is a well-known Artist in Deventer-NL. I was very surprised to see her collection of wearable pieces of art in her living room. She had one just near her front window made of unused CD’s and it struck directly in my mind of Lady Gaga’s Disco Ball dress she wore on a couple of her live performances. 

Hinke Luiten and I

I was really amazed by her very unique and unusual work. She utilized recycled materials such as unused CD’s, bicycle inner tubes, toys, footballs, tin lids, telephone cord, belts, buttons, postbags, bottle caps, computer keyboard along with the mouse, coins, surgical gloves, keys, plastics, and anything unusual you can think of. I got really excited that time to see all these wonderful design, they’re truly a very neat craftsmanship and just so finely made. She enthusiastically showed all her designs to us from movies, pictures, and she even brought us to her workshop room to see hundreds of art pieces she made from the past 18 years.

Ms. Liana Bratasida (Assistant Minister for Global Environmental Affairs, Indonesia and former Chair, SBI, UNFCCC) and Helena Molin of Valdes

She bewitched the ready-to-throw-away materials into pieces of wearable art that are sold to public and available to be rented for window shop display or exhibitions. Somehow she also contributed to save the environment; she implemented the “reuse and recycle” phrase which I consider magnificent. It reminds me of the time I attended one of a side event in the UNFCCC COP-16 in Cancun Mexico about youth as a change agent in fighting Climate Change. Helena Molin a young girl from Valdes was wearing a dress she made out of Magazines she recycled as her project. These things are such inspirational. Sometimes I think it takes more than just “brands” to be outstandingly different. It takes a good sense of concept and a passion itself to pull it off. Cheers!! =D

For more info about Hinke Luiten check out:

http://www.hinkeluiten.nl/frame_jurken_eng.html