Goede Morgen!

Things I miss today....

Blooming daffodils in spring, taken April 6th 2011

Kim's inner courtyard, April 7th 2011

- ♥-

IMPERIAL KITCHEN DUCK NOODLE

Before the day ends, I might as well capture some scattered thoughts. Today was genuinely exciting — perhaps "overwhelmingly happy" better describes my mood. Despite spending most of the day lazing around at the office, I deserved it. I had stayed up until 4 a.m. working on the layout for the Abang Mpok Depok Grand Finals 2013 proposal, then managed just a few hours of sleep before heading back to work.

The day was technically designated for R&D at the office, or as I like to call it, a "break." It kicked off with a presentation on Townships and New Towns (Kota Baru) by one of the assistants, which was quite interesting. I arrived late after the previous night's overtime marathon, compounded by lingering tasks that had kept me up.

The landscape team was busy rearranging their R&D case studies to meet a pressing product deadline for our Hong Kong headquarters. Normally, my supervisor Agnes would help, but she was out sick. So I opted to stay focused on my current priority: completing a project in Senggigi — a 20-hectare resort development. It was my first "solo" project, from baseline analysis and design sketches all the way to the final report, which I finally wrapped up today for submission on Monday. Achieving this amidst the chaos felt like a win.

Later in the afternoon, out of nowhere, Mas Bon messaged me asking if I'd like to join him for his favorite meal: Imperial Kitchen Duck Noodles and Singaporean Sautéed Beans. By 3 p.m., he declared he was leaving Bandung and suggested we meet at Margo City in Depok. Knowing Jakarta's legendary traffic, Depok was the logical compromise.

After finishing my work around 7 p.m., I rushed to catch the train, excited but exhausted. Seeing him was such a relief after a long, hectic day. He stood there in his red Pirelli jersey and grey checkered Bermudas, his familiar scent lingering — the same one he mischievously sprayed on my knitwear before dropping me off at home. I hate saying goodbye to him. I hate being apart. But this is a challenge I need to face: learning how to be unattached, despite loving someone deeply. It sucks, but I remind myself — absence makes the heart grow fonder, right?

What touched me most was his effort to make the meeting happen. In a long-distance relationship, where we're 120 kilometers apart, working in different provinces, and often limited to weekends (if lucky), these moments matter. It's not about the duration but the quality — the feeling of being in someone's presence.

Long-distance relationships thrive on intentionality. As much as technology helps, nothing compares to in-person conversations and shared moments that strengthen the bond. And tonight, that effort made all the difference

A dull morning

Test. *finally tried blogging with my iphone* still getting the hang of it, me and touchscreen are very prone to typos. But I still prefer the usual desktop, plus the conventional keyboards. hehhe but its nice to see that Ill be able to reach my blog on mobile 😊.

Good morning!

SEIZE THE MOMENT

Just got back from work around an hour ago, and suddenly got inspired to write again after "like" "totally" "so" long. I usually have too much consideration when it comes to writing. So lets hope that i could pull myself together after an hour or two.

"there I go skipping a minute..."
Arisbon just IM'd me to tell that he's running out of bat so I had to skip a minute of this writing to quick reply him. Anyway if anyone is reading this and might be wondering who Arisbon is, I promise to you ill write about this special guy. But lets focus today's writing on self contemplation and evaluation.

Ok.. where were I..
Ok, yes writing from the heart. Hmm...,lately I've been thinking about concepts. Concepts of life, how one perceive to see and lo live it. I admit solemnly that I'm a chicken when it comes to interpreting feelings into words. It happens a lot. I'm quiet sure that its because I'm more of a practical person. Its easier to interpret feelings by actions I guess, words are just too two dimensional. (and i also believe that its the cause of all the misunderstandings I made)

As we get older we face much complicated problems that we had to handle. Myself for an instance thought that I had faced a a lot, and each year for me is a different experience with its own level of difficulties and complications. and each year just doesn't get easier.

As we get older, we tend to think that there are a lot of things that are unnecessary. These kind of thoughts are a pat of our long learning life process.

By now, I had gone through more than a year in my professional working experience as an assistant urban designer (not forgetting to mention also as a partially hired researcher and my part time volunteering as a tourism ambassador). As an assistant I've learned so much, just like how I have had since years ago. I got to realize also that my way of thinking is gradually changing. I had to think about long term priorities which I was not used to before. The way i used to do things was more of  "do what you like" but not all these experience and self -maturing attitude made my self for thinking "do what you think is right".

See, the way I perceive these two different phrase is :

"do what you like" seems more inconsiderate, prompt, and random. more subjective and feels more egocentric.

whereas,

"do what you think is right" feels more thoughtful *well at least there is a bit of a thinking process involved* and the term "right" which probably will also get our self for thinking comparisons between whats right or wrong, and whats good or bad.

I guess this is how i changed overtime, I was eventually forced to think this way because of the external force that made me had to decide upon my own choices and solve my own problems. Being an adult turns out to be not so easy, *not that I'm saying that i cant live up to it* there are much more risk and sacrifices that we have to make in order to feel secure. But I guess that there are not only one just like me? (right??.....anyone????.... no???.. hmmm ok, ill have to requestion on that again, hehe)

Sooooo the point is..., Lets face this phase of a challenging life to go further on the next!!.
There is a wonderful future waiting ahead for us to enjoy and explore. :)

Love from Depok City!

Cheers!
N

I collect too many words its in my head.

Most of them are remained unsaid.

there are things so much to do.

Standing in a hall.

Asking me to carry them too.

been taking my time.

but I wasted the time.

then I realized I miss, I miss that kiss.

No use to deny.

Cause there’s only time

Can heal me from that kiss, I miss.

Every time I breath I won’t let a second pass me by, seize the moment.

And I wont release it or leave it.

Every time I breath, there won’t be a second passing by, seize the moment.

Won’t let it go

I remember many dreams.

I meant to get.

Most of them still laying in my bed.

But i do remember you.

With the glory smile.

How I wish to cherish you too.

The places I've seen.

And the faces I've seen.

Is there somewhere unhold.... unhold..... Untold.

The space in between.

What it feels unreal.

But the stories still untold

As the time goes by.

I really mean you to realize.

The things we've got.

I think we could lose by surprise
- ♥-

 

SAND

Words of Wisdom...

That a relationship is like grasping sand in your hand
Hold it loosely with an open hand and the sand will remain
The tighter you hold on to it, the faster it dribbles in between your fingers


Hold your relationship loosely
with respect and freedom for the other person
and remain embraced

Denpasar- Bali, 26th of October 2011

Quoted from a person who kept me sane tonight thank you! Emma Nurfahma

Life is not an essay

Life is not an essay.

The past is not what we should be afraid of, what’s done is done. 

What scares me is the bit of the past that's left in the future. 

The ones that will bring you down.

My loved one always says to me that nothing should I be afraid of.

It’s nothing worth for wasted.

Do what you can do as long as its righteous.

"Your time is more precious for thinking about things that you love.

Rather than making yourself afraid or regret."

Happy 2013!

It's been so long since I posted I don't quite no where to begin, I have not been getting enough time to write on this this blog post since I've been busy working my nights out at the urban design consultant company where I work usually almost for 10 hours everyday and now I keep deleting everything I type. I think I will just share with you some of my favorite photos from the past and some stories that's left unposted on my draft box. I will ease myself slowly back in to the world of blogging with no pressure, if I do write more often then I must be a superman and if I don't then Ill still probably be imagining myself fantacizing my holiday in Bali for New Years Eve. Happy New Year 2013 everyone! :)