THE SPEED OF LIGHT THROUGH TIME AND SPACE

NORTH SAILS OF THE MODERN BATAVIA

SELF REFLECTION

Its been a while since my fingers had been dancing on top of my loyal-life supporting Asus.I left this blog for almost (1...2...3...4.. ok) 5 months already. After I got back from that vicious cold country, underwent a proper convocation ceremony, and eventually got employed, things a bit changed. Since I've been committed to a working contract as an assistant Urban Design consultant I'm lacking of precious spare time after office hours *seriously I'm not wining nor complaining, just contemplating.. well maybe a little- but just a little*. I solemnly believe that this is a consequence of being employed, I work to be responsible of what I am obligated to take part in and I am satisfied of how I was "capable" of filling the national market demand.

This is to remind myself how I had went through living my life, just to reflect myself on how my emotions and maturity developed. How decisions that were made determines where I head to in life, how I was able to obtain the best out of un-mendable mistakes that I accidentally or consciously made. It's still a long journey, and I'm not sure until when I will arrive in my final destination.

Eventually in the end all I wanted to feel before the glory or a failure of a result  is the process. the "going through" part of the story  which I think is important in making me realize what kind of input I've learned so far or how experience moulds me to become a better individual and the way my perspective change towards responding a certain phenomenon.

beste,

CONFESSION

I will be bold.
I will fix my stupid past decisions.
I will work harder.
I will make better plans.
and I will continue to live up my dreams!

Welcome 2012!! :)

POKEMON

I never put you second, but I realized that I was not a priority.
And choices are made upon priorities.

One step back at a time I will take further to forget about a hope that I once used to have and start over by learning from the past.

STILLETOS

Stilettos oh dear stilletos,

You gave me so much confidence, glamour and self esteem. 

Your flawless appearance is so captivating, you look pretty.

I had so much fun being with you, dancing around fooling around.

You accompany me throughout high end parties, made me successful with a little touch of your sensuality.

You changed the way I walked, the way I talk, the way I smile, and sometimes the way I think too. 

You are different than any other shoe. 

Sometimes I feel those feelings are just enough to make me fall in love with you. 

Stilletos oh dear stilletos, 

An hour or two would be fine, but I guess I will kill myself if I had to stay for a day with you. 

You hurt me often, you make me feel in blue whenever I get blisters because of you. 

Or whenever I think that you feel more comfortable inside your box.
Sometimes you make me feel for not being myself. 

You made me a different person whenever I wear you. 

Dear stilletos, you got those heels, those will be enough to kill me.

But I dont now why I stood up for you, you are just too good to be true.

dear stilletos, what if you got rid of your heels? would you still be nice to me? 

Now I have to decide to keep you, or to let you go.

   

UNDERWORLD

Journey heading to the underworld. I sat on the third row of a dozen on the black Pegasus carriage just in front of him. I remember very well that hooded bassaris leather robe which reflects his warmth showing as if he came from some place beyond the borders of the known and civilized. He looked very charming from the distance, but I never had noticed it until one day he was gone forever.